Monday, May 31, 2010

the series eye - intense religious emotion



i believe i suffered more than christ. i love life and i want to live, to cry but cannot - i feel such a pain in my soul - a pain which frightens me. my soul is ill. my soul, not my mind. the doctors do not understand my illness... everybody who reads these lines will suffer... my body is not ill, it is my soul that is ill. (from nijinsky's diary - published 1937)

my little girl is singing: 'ah ah ah ah.' i do not understand its meaning, but i feel what she wants to say. she wants to say that everything... is not horror, but joy (from nijinsky's diary)

the outsider's problem is to balance this against van gogh's last words: misery will never end. it is a question no longer of philosophy, but of religion. (colin wilson)

when the voice was heard in the silence i felt my body harden and the nausea vanish; suddenly it was almost unbearable to become so hard, so brilliant... i am in the music. globes of fire turn in the mirrors, encircled by rings of smoke. (from jean-paul satre's la nausée - 1938)

all quotes found in colin wilson's the outsider - 1956
drawings by nijinsky

7 comments:

rosesandhello said...

i love the eye

the art of memory said...

i know, i want to get a book with more images.

Kate said...

I love the eye too. To be so beautiful and so gifted but to have suffered so much ... Nijinky was both blessed and cursed it seems in the way of the ancients.

the art of memory said...

but suffering is better than feeling nothing

Kate said...

I think you have a very strong point there.

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