family photos my mother sent me part three (sounds like dirt xxxi)

i couldn't stop myself
i knew i'd do it again
but i could heal myself
if i could feel your skin
and if i comprehend, and this moment
i know we'll live again
and if i heal your wound
we will make love again
and now we're slipping through
this millennium
we should feel sorry for the people
and can i kiss your skin?
and there's hunger in the desert
and missiles in the sky
and every soul is interwoven
before the wrong or right
i know we'll live again
though it's just a feeling
i know we'll never end
like there was no beginning
i know it's cold tonight
i'll kiss your velvet skin
i know we'll never end
i'll keep you company


(swans killing for company from the great annihilator)

family photos my mother sent me part two (sounds like dirt xxx)

in my life the piano sings
brings me words that are not the strength of strings
fiery rain and ruby's cooling sun
now i see that my world has only begun
notes that roll on winds with swirling wings...
brings me words that are not the strength of strings

gene clark / this mortal coil

(sounds like dirt xxix) satellite of love

satellite's gone
up to the skies
things like that drive me
out of my mind

i watched it for a little while
i like to watch things on tv

satellite of love
satellite of love
satellite of love
satellite of

satellite's gone
way up to mars
soon it will be filled
with parking cars

i watch it for a little while
i love to watch things on tv

satellite of love
satellite of love
satellite of love
satellite of

satellite's gone
up to the skies
things like that drive me
out of my mind

i watched it for a little while
i love to watch things on tv

satellite of love
satellite of love
satellite of love
satellite of

satellite of love
satellite of love
satellite of love
satellite of love
satellite of love
satellite of love

(sounds like dirt xxviii) set the controls for the heart of the sun, atmospheric afterglows

little by little the night turns around
counting the leaves which tremble at dawn
lotuses lean on each other in yearning
under the eaves the swallow is resting

set the controls for the heart of the sun

over the mountain watching the watcher
breaking the darkness, waking the grapevine
one inch of love is one inch of shadow
love is the shadow that ripens the wine

set the controls for the heart of the sun
the heart of the sun, the heart of the sun

witness the man who raves at the wall
making the shape of his questions to Heaven
whether the sun will fall in the evening
will he remember the lesson of giving?

set the controls for the heart of the sun
the heart of the sun, the heart of the sun

images by william ascroft, atmospheric afterglows
thanks to öl byrd for the images

(sounds like dirt xxvii) high on amphetamines

everything is exactly right
when i walk around here drunk every night
with an open container from squirrel is my spirit animal
in st. ides heaven
i've been out haunting the neighborhood
and everybody can see I'm no good
when i'm walking out between parked cars
with my head full of stars
high on amphetamines
the moon is a light bulb breaking
it'll go around with anyone
but it won't come down for anyone

you think you know what brings me down
that i want those things you could never allow
you see me smile and you think it's a frown turned upside-down
cos everyone is a fucking pro
and they all got answers from trouble they've known
and they all gotta say what you should and shouldn't do
though they don't have a clue
high on amphetamines
the moon is a light bulb breaking
it'll go around with anyone
but it won't come down for anyone
and i won't come down for anyone

photo by joe squirrel

(sounds like dirt xxvi) let me enfold you

long afloat on shipless oceans
i did all my best to smile
'til your singing eyes and fingers
drew me loving to your isle
and you sang
sail to me
sail to me
let me enfold you
here i am
here i am
waiting to hold you

did i dream you dreamed about me?
were you hare when i was fox?
now my foolish boat is leaning
broken lovelorn on your rocks,
for you sing, 'touch me not, touch me not, come back tomorrow
o my heart, o my heart shies from the sorrow'

i am puzzled as the newborn child
i am troubled at the tide
should i stand amid your breakers?
should i lie with death my bride?
hear me sing, 'swim to me, swim to me, let me enfold you
here i am, here i am, waiting to hold you'

tim buckley, larry beckett, this mortal coil (cocteau twins), david lynch
image, j.m.w. turner as rothko looking at the sea

(sounds like dirt xxv) oh faster baby let's go

sitting behind the front wheel
got my woman beside me too

hey baby we're going home
no baby we're going home

i don't mind the drizzling rain
inside it's warm and dry

hey baby we're going home
no baby we're going home

aye aye die die da ...

oh faster baby let's go
racing on through the night

hey baby we're going home
hey baby we're going home

and baby when we get there
i'll do everything for you

because baby we'll be back home
now baby we'll be back home

aye aye die die da ...

and all i hope is down (?)
get stabbed on somehow way

because baby we must get home
no baby we must get home

and I don't mind telling you gal
a police man won't do us good

a jailhouse will be my home
a jailhouse will be my home

so faster baby let's go
oh racing on through the night

hey baby we're going home
hey baby we're going home

aye aye die die da ...

music : pentangle - travelling song
image : edward hopper - road and rocks - 1962 (?), side a touch out of focus from scanner
from the book hopper drawing

(sounds like dirt xxiv) would you be an outlaw for my love?

won't you let me walk you home from school?
won't you let me meet you at the pool?
maybe friday i can get tickets for the dance
and i'll take you
 
won't you tell your dad, "get off my back?"
tell him what we said about "paint it black"
rock n' roll is here to stay, come inside where it's okay
and i'll shake you
 
won't you tell me what you're thinking of?
would you be an outlaw for my love?
if it's so, well, let me know, if it's no, well I can go
i won't make you

(big star, alex chilton and chris bell)

- #1 record - ardent records/stax - 1972
- radio city - ardent records/stax, 1974
- 3rd/sister lovers - pvc records - 1978
- keep an eye on the sky - rhino - 2009 (box set)
- nothing can hurt me - omnivore recordings - 2013

(sounds like dirt xxiii) you seem close to the edge

 
if i could just make it stop
i could tell the whole world
to get out of the way
if i could just make it stop
if i could just make it stop
breaking my heart
get out of the way
if i could just make it stop

(drone)

you seem close to the edge
i'm at the end of my rope
the rope is starting to thread
i'm trying to keep my hold

you say i'm something i'm not
but i'm not what i seem
get my back off the wall
if i could just make it stop
if i could just make it stop
i could tell the hole world
to get out of the way
if i could just make it stop
if i could just make it stop
breaking my heart
get out of the way
if i could just make it stop
if i could just make it stop

(drone)

now i'm looking up from a ten foot hole
see nothing but blue sky, shining on my soul
as i enter the court and untwist the knot
we could get where we're going,
if i could just make it stop
if i could just make it stop
i could tell the whole world
to get out of the way
if i could just make it stop
if i could just make it stop
from breaking my heart
get out of the way
if i could just make it stop
if i could just make it stop

(drone)

(melancholia by low and m swiezynski)

(sounds like dirt xxi & xxii) sing us one of your songs may

we have laid here
we have laid here
we have laid here before

we have laid here
we have laid here
we have laid here before

whistle sinking, blow the bugles
blues came back in night fight
rabbits laughing in black doyt-holes
lilies bleeding in the street

we have laid here
we have laid here
we have laid here before

captured armies, news impending
wheels longing now to stop

we have laid here
we have laid here
we have laid here before

we have laid here
we have laid here
we have laid here before

sing us one of your songs, may
the ones you know so well
sing us one of your songs, may
you know we love you well
dry the tears from your eyes, may
what's it gonna be?
for you know he's gone to heaven, may
though he was only 23

they say he was a brave one, may
and we all here agree
there never was a finer one, may
that died for his country

sing us one of your songs, may
the ones you know so well
sing us one of your songs, may
you know we love you well
dry the tears from your eyes, may
what's it gonna be?
for you know he's gone to heaven, may
though he was only 23

they say he was a brave one, may
and we all here agree
there never was a finer one, may
that died for his country

sing us one of your songs, may 

(music : bill fay / images : grandparent's wedding & focused relative)

(sounds like dirt xx) haven't had a dream in a long time

good times for a change
see, the luck i've had
can make a good man
turn bad

so please please please
let me, let me, let me
let me get what i want
this time

haven't had a dream in a long time
see, the life i've had
can make a good man bad

so for once in my life
let me get what i want
lord knows, it would be the first time
lord knows, it would be the first time

(words : the smiths / images : mother's curtains)

(sounds like dirt xix) oh i wish them both much joy, though they don't hear me

oh a blacksmith courted me nine months or better
he fairly won my heart, wrote me a letter
with his hammer in his hand he looked so clever
and if i were with my love i'd live forever

oh where has my love gone with his cheeks like roses
he is gone across the sea gathering primroses
i'm afraid the shining sun might burn and scorch his beauty
and if i were with my love i would do my duty

strange news is a-come to town, strange news is carried
strange news flies up and down that my love is married
oh i wish them both much joy, though they don't hear me
and if i were with my love i would do my duty

what did you promise me when you lay beside me
you said you'd marry me and not deny me
if i said i'd marry you twas only to try you
so bring your witness love and i'll not deny you

oh witness have i none save God almighty
and may he reward you well for the slighting of me
her lips grew pale and wan, it made her poor heart tremble,
for to think she loved one and he'd proved deceitful

oh a blacksmith courted me nine months or better
he fairly won my heart, wrote me a letter
with his hammer in his hand he looked so clever
and if i were with my love i would live forever

(for buster)

(sounds like dirt xviii) heroin, it's my wife and it's my life

i don't know just where i'm going
but i'm gonna try for the kingdom, if i can
'cause it makes me feel like i'm a man
when i put a spike into my vein
and i'll tell ya, things aren't quite the same
when i'm rushing on my run
and i feel just like Jesus' son
and i guess that i just don't know
and i guess that i just don't know

i have made big decision
i'm gonna try to nullify my life
'cause when the blood begins to flow
when it shoots up the dropper's neck
when i'm closing in on death
and you can't help me now, you guys
and all you sweet girls with all yours sweet talk
you can all go take a walk
and i guess i just don't know
and i guess i that just don't know

i wish that i was born a thousand years ago
i wish that i'd sail the darkened seas
on a great big clipper ship
going from this land here to that
in a sailor's suit and cap
away from the big city
where a man can not be free
of all of the evils of this town
and of himself, and those around
oh, and i guess that i just don't know
oh, and i guess that i just don't know

heroin, be the death of me
heroin, it's my wife and it's my life
because a mainer to my vein
leads to a center in my head
and then i'm better off and dead
(much fucked up viola - time starts now)
because when the smack begins to flow
i really don't care anymore
about all the jim-jim's in this town
and all the politicians makin' crazy sounds
and everybody puttin' everybody else down
and all the dead bodies piled up in mounds

'cause when the smack begins to flow
then i really don't care anymore
ah, when the heroin is in my blood
and blood is in my head
then thank God that i'm as good as dead
then thank your God that i'm not aware
and thank God that i just don't care
and i guess i just don't know
oh, and i guess i just don't know

i might be dreaming (follow pain and bleed me)

if i may, and if i might, lay me down weeping
if i say, what is like, i might be dreaming
if i may, what is right, so many time, see me heal

those years in his vomit
a phrase from his pocket
and chains holding the wind, i won't be

dream
do re mi, do re mi
do re mi

if i may, and if i'm right wake me up, see me
if i do, and if i like, find me how to see me
if i may, and cold as ice, i may how to see me

raised in his socket
it fades from his moment
a chase from his socket, i will need

ray dream
do re mi, do re mi
do re mi, do re mi
do re mi

wish me good, and wish me light, break me down, see me
in your way, just be quiet, follow pain and bleed me
yell or wail, and if i sigh, sink me how, tv
if i may, and if i might, gonna go to bleed

praise in his pocket
praise from his moment
a chase from his own in my tea

ray dream
rape me, don't rape me
do re mi, do re mi
don't rape me, do re mi

(kurt cobain)


matthew swiezynski - i might be dreaming (kurt cobain cover)

(sounds like dirt xvi) i still can't remember how or where i lost my way

he came dancing across the water
with his galleons and guns
looking for the new world
in that palace in the sun.

on the shore lay montezuma
with his coca leaves and pearls
in his halls he often wondered
with the secrets of the world.

and his subjects
gathered 'round him
like the leaves around a tree
in their clothes of many colors
for the angry gods to see.

and the women all were beautiful
and the men stood
straight and strong
they offered life in sacrifice
so that others could go on.

hate was just a legend
war was never known
the people worked together
and they lifted many stones.

they carried them
to the flatlands
and they died along the way
but they built up
with their bare hands
what we still can't do today.

and i know she's living there
and she loves me to this day
i still can't remember how
or where i lost my way.

he came dancing across the water
cortez, cortez
what a killer.

(sounds like dirt xv)

up, up, up and down
turn, turn, turn around
round, round, round about
and over again

gun, gun, son of a gun
you are the only one
makes any difference to what i say

the sun shines in the bedroom
when we play
the raining always stars
when you go away

(sounds like dirt xiv) the sky is breaking

stay tonight
we'll watch the full moon rising
hold on tight
the sky is breaking

i don't ever want to be alone
with all my darkest dreaming
hold me close
the sky is breaking

i don't ever want to be alone
with all my darkest dreaming
hold me close
the sky is breaking

images by tawara yūsaku

(sounds like dirt xiii) from my mouth to yours

i like it - i'm not gonna crack
i miss you - i'm not gonna crack
i love you - i'm not gonna crack
i killed you - i'm not gonna crack
i like it - i'm not gonna crack
i miss you - i'm not gonna crack
i love you - i'm not gonna crack
i killed you - i'm not gonna crack

broken our mirrors we broke our mirrors
sunday morning is everyday for all i care ...

(sounds like dirt xii) everything means nothing to me

someone found the future as a statue in a fountain
at attention, looking backward within a pool of water
wishes with a blue songbird on his shoulder
who keeps singing over everything

everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me

i picked up the song and found my picture in the paper
the reflection in the water showed an iron man still trying to salute
people from a time when he was everything he's supposed to be

everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me
everything means nothing to me

(sounds like dirt xi) oh i’m dazed, and i’m dazed, and i’m dazed

look at him shouting out, loud as thunder at the sea
he wants a bomb and so do we
a bomb from the sky is the perfect crime
shoulder on shoulder and heat
the beatles and the stones, suck the marrow out of bones
put the “v” in “vietnam”
the beatles and the stones made it good to be alone
be alone
look at me, look at me proud of being seventeen
locking in the pocket a smile
soft from the school and cut by the rule
oh i’m dazed, and i’m dazed, and i’m dazed
the beatles and the stones, suck the marrow out of bones
put the “v” in “vietnam”
the beatles and the stones made it good to be alone
be alone

lyrics g. chadwick, performed by meg baird